Happy New Year 2011

Never been this confused..

Hoping to have a same kinda year, where I can mess up things, where I can always expect my people to forgive me, and where Sai holds me every moment..

Lets see..

Happy New Year 2011 :)

Love..

Love provides unique experience to every individual.

Some sing, some paint, and some write poetry to express it.

My dad makes my life, yet another way, his own.

The Last Song..

Loved the book to the core :)

It's the 1st book, I felt, not even a word is wasted.Every line and every page has it's own purpose and a special way to touch the hearts.
Ronnie, a 17yr old girl, matured enough, independent, caring, lovable, adorable, funny, honest and so on.. was angry with her father, stops talking to him for 3 years, as she believes he divorced her mother, and left the family for his own sake, which ,she learns later, is not true.
Her father, Steve, is a pianist, for whom music is life, who's awaiting to feel God's presence on the earth, and who loves Ronnie and, his only son, Jonah, 10 yr old, more than life itself.
When everything was going well, Ronnie learns Piano from her father and is very good at it.But she stops playing it when she gets angry with her father.Which adds to the Steve's pain of missing his family.
One day, he comes to know, he's in advanced stage of throat cancer and left only few days to live.
When informing this to his ex-wife, Kim, requests her to let the children spend the summer with him. And he asks her not to tell them about his health.
He lives in South Carolina, a beach town.
Ronnie, reluctantly agrees to come down, as she had no choice of deciding, as she was still 17 then, where as Jonah was happy to spend with his father.
Ronnie, comes to like her father for his ultimate love and forgiveness.
She falls in love with Will, 18 yr old, who loves her back.
They both share such a sweet love, which lasts for their life times.
Jonah admits he never wanna leave the place though he misses his mom.
Seems, everything is fair until they come to know the truth, that their father is going to die soon.
Jonah was too young to understand anything and Ronnie's heart breaks as she realizes how much pain she caused to her dad.
Summer comes to end, so their time of being together.
Ronnie, by then, completes 18 years and now is an adult, who can decide things for herself.
She insists to stay with her dad, to treasure the last moments and to take care of him.
Having no other choice, Jonah, leaves to New York, with his mother.
Ronnie plays the Piano for him and completes the song, which her dad started and left because of his ill-health. Which is their last song.
Steve realizes God is always, everywhere, and He'll answer to every question, and answer can be heard with the heart, not ears.

And he passes away, peacefully, feeling he's the most luckiest father.

Superb Book :) Bless Nicholas Sparks :)

Specifically Nothing ;)

As the title of this post suggests,
I actually haven't anything specific in my mind.

But came here to share something I felt so good learning about.

I once read in Sai' s book
" Gyan is something which can be found nowhere but yourself "

and

"Guru is someone who helps us find it and after finding, to let us have it forever"

Sai is one such a great Guru to my life and I love to boast that having Him is the best thing ever happened to me in all my life.

Now today, he made me learn something, of which I'm totally unaware of it's knowledge inside me, until I said it to a brother while chatting.

Life is too short to have anything but happiness.
It's something everyone says.

But according to me, life is perfect, when you can cry, if you have to and intend to.

When you can be able to celebrate not only good things, but bad things too
( may be their meaning might change, because we cannot truly predict how things may end up )

You cry for a reason and get a chance to see how many people do really care for you and your feelings.

So, life isn't only for happiness, for the reasonable pain too.

Waiting for someone :)

Waiting for someone

• In whose company, I don't have to pretend I'm happy when I'm not :D
  
• Who can let me read whenever I want to :P
  
• *Who can understand my relation with Sai ( Most Important ) ** :)
  
• Who can respect my parents as I'm gonna do his parents :)
  
• Who can love me the same even when I looked like a devil (my dad's one who did that, and I'd like my man to do the same) ;) :D
  
• Who can make me laugh like never before but who never makes fun of my emotions. :| :P
  
• Who can fight with me for silly reasons, and who wouldn't be ashamed to apologize, irrespective of whose mistake it was ;)
  
• Who can enjoy the silent messages that go around through eyes when we're not talking :)
  
• Who can wipe my tears gently with his hands hugging me :) ;)
  
• Who can never afford to lose me for anything in the world :)
  

• Lastly, who can let me adopt one child ( my biggest dream ) ..
  

If only I can find such a person, I promise, I can love him, like no one had ever loved him.

P.S. I don't mind even if some mentioned qualities are missed, if he sure knows he deserves me.

I feel the Pain..

I sometimes feel I'm the luckiest on the earth for few reasons,
and I know they're very beautiful reasons which can keep me happy
not fr only years but for 1000's of lifetimes.

But still, sometimes, when something hurts me,
I cry, my heart pains when my eyes get wet,
and I tend to curse something of me.

I start loving myself even more, more than ever.

I congratulate myself for still I can feel the pain.
Because, I couldn't have felt it unless my heart was able to react.

And as long as it's able to react,
it can have all the love showered on me, and the whole world, by the Almighty.

So it can help me connect with the world of love,
which finally can take me to Sai, my ultimate goal.

It reminds me I shall only love people, never hate one,
so as to make my soul become eligible to rest at his foot.

I feel the pain, with gratitude.

Cheers :D