Confession..

I hate myself for living the day of bitter most realization of my life.
I hate myself for letting it happen.

I met Sai some 12 years ago (as far as my foolish knowledge is concerned :| )
Loved His ideology :)
All He said was to have Sraddha, boundless faith and Saburi, unmoved patience.
It sounded easy to me.
And it is :) :d

One can own Him by simply thinking of Him.
Nothing else.

And I owned Him, for sometime.
He loved me in a way, I could never find words to describe.
He cared for me as if am His only concern in the whole world.
He used to talk to me.
He used to find ways to show me how important I am to Him.
And He made me realize, with out Him, I am nothing.

I couldn't decide now, if I intentionally let myself move slowly away from Him.

But the damage is done.

I miss Him. Al the way.

Even now, I start my day after wishing Him a good morning, and end my day wishing Him good night.

I remember Him, all the time, but I know, I admit, something is missing.

I just took advantage of His closeness, I took it for granted.
And now the problem is, even though He's just the same with me, no matter how foolish to ignore Him, but I am no longer the same. I couldn't hear Him anymore.

It's purely my mistake and I pay for it now.

Still, as He's sweeter than a child, He didn't even take a moments time to forgive me :D
And am welcome into His warmest of hugs again :D

I am crazy about Him, and I pray that I should stay the same :)

I also assign Him the duty of keeping me straight.

Once you own Him, He'll be all yours forever.

After all, He's God, the Almighty, not a man, like you or me.

Now, I confess He's the best thing of my life :)

NEW YEAR !!

I saw this pic on FB and felt like adding my description to it.
Also, it's been almost 75 days since I wrote something in my blog. Poor me :|

Goals for 2013 :

1. Smile more.

I already do this :D
Irrespective of what lay ahead of me, I have unlimited faith on my God, my best friend, and all time savior Sai :D

I clearly know that I don't have to shed tears for something that's not mine :D

I don't find any reason to not smile, so I smile, haha :)

2. Eat healthier.

Umm, I prefer eating tastier than healthier though I know later one is good.

And I don't care what I eat as long as I can enjoy it :D

3. Make lot of new friends.

Umm, am now at the stage of life, where I find myself not wanting any more new friends.
But I welcome those who can fit my world, either this way or that way :D

4. Learn to love myself.

Learned long ago B-)

5. Fall in love.

This is something I do constantly :)
It's as natural to me as breathing :)
I feel Sai in my every breath and that makes me fall in love all over again :)

6. Be loved back.

Haha :D Finally, I got the chance to boast about Sai's loving me back :D

If He doesn't love me back, I won't be finding the joy in almost everything, right from the beginning of the day, I wish Him a good morning, hug myself, rejoice my being-alive for the day, love the moment and I welcome what ever comes to me with open arms, the whole day.
And the best thing takes place, when I end the day by delivering all that He's given to me, back to Him, and He smiles a happy smile :D

Yes, I am loved by Him <3 :d=":d" a="a" and="and" counting..="counting.." i="i" in="in" million="million" still="still" ways="ways">

7. Make at least one person's day.

I really don't know if am good for this. I hope I am.

8. Dance in the rain at least once.

I used to :D

9. Become more outgoing.

I have to improve this.

10. Be happy.

Yes, I am :)