Hate Sundays :(

Hm, Yeah I do hate Sundays :(

I had been hating them for years, only thing that changed is the reason for why I do hate them.

When I was in hostel, used to come home for the weekend, I had to start for the college, Monday at 6 A.M, so I can reach college at 8 A.M.

It was like a ritual and I continued to do the same, all those years.

Eventually it made me love Saturdays and hate Sundays :|

I experienced how it would feel when your heart filled with a lot of grief :(

I love my hostel life so much that even sometimes I feel bore at home, but it doesn't alter anything about my hating Sundays. Ufff.. :(

Hm, now, since 2007, I'm staying home.

The same deep agony pained me, even after returning home.

May be it's my mind that's tuned according to hate Sundays.

Hm, whatever, today, again a Sunday, I've got a new reason to hate it. :X

I was irritated for no reason, and what bothered me is, no one in my dearest family seemed to care enough of it.

I know, nothing can make me very happy but their smile for me and nothing can stop them doing anything for me.

I know, I mean life to them.

I know, it hurts them like hell, when I'm not well.

I know they're the only people to who I can do all stupid things, still expect them to love me.

I know they forgive me so quickly that I start bothering them too early after I dragged them to hell.

I know, I know, I really do know...

But I could not help crying, while typing this, totally cursing myself for doing so. :(

They left me alone :|

May be, they thought I've grown up so well that I can manage myself.
May be, they thought I don't need them to care for me.
May be it's because, I'm gonna cross my 25Th birthday soon.

May be that's true. Hope so.

But I'll be in need of them forever. Forever means forever.
I don't think they don't know that.
And the other thing I'm sure about is, they'll always be there for me.

I know it's happened just like that.

For, I could never gonna let them know of my need of them staying by my side.
I don't have to, as a matter of fact.

But I hate Sundays. Huh. Nothing is ever gonna change it. :|
Get lost you Sunday :| RIP

God and Peace

Even though I know, I'm not enough qualified to write on this topic, still I would love to share what I feel about God, because, He plays very important role in my life.

God, undoubtedly, gives everything.

Happiness and sorrow.
Thirst and water.
Hunger and food.
Light and darkness.Life and death.

I heard many times people questioning, if God's really out there, then why don't He comes to rescue so many people in need?

To come and help anyone, anytime, He's neither a machine nor a single persona.
He's almighty and is there in everyone.
He just lets everyone manage their lives.
He creates enough resources to use and to be utilized, enough experiences to learn from and to apply to, and enough life to lead.
He'll be helping people by creating various chances in order to get the human out of that situation.
All we need is to understand those mere blessings.
What's the need of creating so much pain in life?

We can enjoy the light only when we faced the darkness, no?!
He makes us thirsty to let us enjoy drinking water.
He makes us hungry to let us have the food.
The same way, He makes us unhappy finally to let us realize what happiness is !!
The more pain you bear, the more you'll become eligible for happiness.
It's not give and take or something.
But earning the ability to have something better.

Why is he never visible?

He's invisible, I agree, but not always.
You feed someone who's almost near the death for he lacks food, and listen to what he says.
That's God for you, appears everywhere if you truly intend to see Him.

Sensitiveness..

What do you think sensitiveness is ???!!

You get hurt for some reason, tears roll in your eyes, and is that sensitiveness?

Your buddy is not talking with you,
You're not home,
You're not getting paid well,
You're not being treated well,
and so on . . .
Is that all?

Hmm, for me, it's not all.

The reasons whatever mentioned above do not qualify the quality of being sensitive.

You get injured, you could not bear the pain anymore, and you tend to cry.
That's the most obvious thing in the world.
You don't have to be sensitive.
The reason you're human is enough for that.
Sensitiveness is the ability to react.

You see someone drunk, on footpath, having no one to care for him, flies running over his wounds, and he's unaware of what's been happening to him.

You wanna help him out, but you're helpless.

You watch kids being punished not for their mistake, if clearly asked, the reason is they're poor. And they don't go to school, won't be able to learn geography and science, and play with all other kids of their age.
you wanna stop it, but you can not do anything at times.

In many other likewise cases, you might feel helpless, and out of helplessness, you curse yourself.

And watching a sunrise, feeling the warmth around you, the love being showered upon the world from the almighty.
You hug yourself when you feel good about something and because you're able to feel it.

You help someone, you enjoy the light in their eyes, you smile at yourself as you deserve a blessing.

You're totally shrunk in your work, all you need is some relaxation, you thank your colleague with all your heart, when he/she offers some help.

Whether it be anything, being able to react, is my meaning of sensitiveness.

P.S. Pawan Kalyan is the most sensitive man I ever saw.

Am so lucky :) :D

Am so lucky !! Yes, I'm !!!

Not just because, I'm living this moment and very aware of my life's worth on this planet :P

But for having attained the most loving brothers possible on earth.

I know, every other girl having a brother is also lucky, but I've no doubt, in my case, it's a lot different.

A brother can protect as we know, but, my brothers make me see the world through their eyes.

They attend to me long before the problem even starts to arrive at me.

I shed a tear, I know they will be there to wipe it off.

I crack a joke, I know they will be there to enjoy it, no matter how stupid it was.

I write something, I know they will be there to applaud, even if it's not that good.

I doubt something, I know they will be there to clarify me, not just regarding that particular issue, but also whatever made me doubt it.

I get something, it makes them happy more than myself and even more than who helped me achieve it.

I can share anything and everything with them without a slightest doubt.

I never knew, depending on someone so much can be the loveliest reason to lead the life with more laughter.

Now, I came to know, life's a lot easier when we've someone to share it with.

I wrote this for two very special brothers, Seenu and Praveen.

Love you both so much >:D< :)

Why I re - Read :D

I already told you I love reading, right?!

Now here's the reason why I read some books again and again.

Actually I love books for not what they contain, but for the way they ( writers ) make the content reach hearts.

Love narration more than the material.
Because, I love feelings, and how they travel from mind to mind, heart to heart and finally eyes to brain.

So it does not matter to me how many times I read the same, as long as I can feel something new, every time I read.

Lovely experience..

December 10th, 2008

Hi frnds.. I’m here to share a wonderful experience with my God Sai..

I’m happy to recollect it.. It was 4years back but I still feel it with a very frsh smell.

And coming to d point, I’ve a habbit of asking permission of my Sai b4 I start anything.

I heard from my friends there’s a seminar in a college which is just 20 mins away from ours.

We wanted to go as just to go out from hostel.

I told Sai and He said me “don’t go”.

I heard Him saying that but dint care it.

I said to myself, He always stops me, as if there’s going to be a blast..
And I went.

But…can u guess what happend?

We came back coz we dint find any place to sit..

Ya, it happend and that’s why sometimes I’m very much afraid to cross His word.
He loves me after all.
He’s d best caretaker and I feel so blessed..
bye frnds, just for now..

Something unusual..

December 10th, 2008

Frnds..
Have u ever experienced dat sometimes we lose control over ourselves???

Anyway, it happens sometimes..

Still we’re’nt sure what God has kept in store for us..

Whatever it is, we r all going to end up wid a bright smile at what happend..at dat point of time..

I knw I’m not clear, I want to be unclear actually :P
So I’m enjoying now, leaving u wid a confused expression!!!!!

Heehehhehehhehehehehee……..
Keep smiling always..
Life is going to get better in any way.. :)

Thanksgiving to My Dearest Sai..

December 9th, 2008

Gud mrng all my frnds, yesterday was my 23rd bday, and I felt my Sai’s care for me in every min, just every min..
He made my day in such a way that I dont need anything else other than the time being..
Thank u Sai for being my evrything and please please never think of leaving me alone, cuz I just cant imagine anything without u..
I cant stand if u r not thr supporting me..
Thank u always for evrything..
Love u, love u, love u, love u, and love u..

Friends.. Friends.. and Friends :)

December 4th, 2008

Oh my God, where were these friends came from?

They are making life wonderful, thrilling and leaving with a feeling that there are still a lot of things to fill in..For my Little life.. :)

They are becoming one of the best reasons to live life with more smiles.. :D

I want to thank everyone of my dear, sweet, cute, and superb friends.. 0:)

Thank u all.. and be with me all the life.. >:D<

Without anyone of u, nothing gud wud have been possible..

I need u all morethan anything..take care frnds.. Love yu :)

Jus like that :D

October 29th, 2008

Hi all even though I am new to blogging, expecting a lot, that we both can enjoy by it.
How u celebrated this deepavali?
I am with my family, enjoying every minute.
Why I can enjoy every minute being home because I’ve spent years in hostel, anyway now I am at home. Feeling so lucky.

About Shadow In Madhu Babu Books

I am a big fan of the character ‘SHADOW’, who’s favourite of many other book lovers. The author Madhubabu recently spoke out, he first named shadow as ‘NISEEDHDHU’. Due to some issues, niseedhudu turned out to be shadow and won hearts. We can learn a lot of things from this character if we want to. I’ll try to shortlist them.
1. He’s a real Indian. He cares it.
2. He helps everyone.
3. He never hurts anybody, he tries his best at it.
4. He never step back, no matter how nasty the situation was.
5. In Life, he’s ready to face anything.
6. He always gives his best to anything that came over to him.
7. He cares for his people in every sense.
8. He never discourage one.
9. He’s always optimistic.
To continue, there are still more. If you can read these writings, you can automatically build a lovely personality in yourself, which can easily make Life worthy.

Wanna tell yu..

Hi everybody, I am new. I am happy to join you. I wanna start this beautiful journey with my most loving God Sai..
If I start saying about Him, sure, there won't be no end.
He’s with me everytime, taking every care of me, and trying every way to make me happy.
I’m what I’m now purely because of Him.
He’s just amazing.
Anyone can have this sort of happiness, with their own possessions, if they can strongly commit to them (whatever they may be).
Hope you learn more joyous ways to make up your life as lovely as it could be. Keep on enjoying. See you later…

Written on October 29th, 2008

New Beginning :)

Hmm surprising how simple things change life..so easily !!

I remember the girl who jumped with joy for just she's permitted to go home from hostel.
How innocent it sounds, aah!!

Now the same girl fighting from evil people in her life with a lot of courage :)

It's all because of one word " Sai" :)

Love yu Sai :) Forever :)"