Resilience..

I resigned my job 2 days ago, which has been a part of myself and my life for so long.
Am totally absorbed into it.

I never knew resigning from something can cause pain this sharp.

This thought of having to spend my days to come with no specific purpose, no where to go, nothing in particular to attend is extremely scaring me.

Yeah, I am a positive person. I never forget that.

Now, looking at this from a different angle(also a good one) I understood that doing a job not only gives me my economical freedom and stability, also it regularly boosts my inner self.

My job always provided me with a profound peace that at least am worth of something and that am doing something worthy.

That feeling kept me awake and also alert all the time.

I loved my job so much.
Everything started making sense now.
At times, when I could no longer cope up with the pressure of the-most-hectic journey to my work place, I desperately wanted to leave my job, but surprisingly, I never did.
No matter how troublous going to and coming from college was, I never quit my job.

May be, I knew so well, not even having to spare a thought, that I could not live well with a part of myself missing.

Am noting this to withstand this pleasure of pain.

Resignation, in my own terms is a realization.

Also am more than happy that it once more proved me that I never grow beyond refusing what my father asks me.

And as per Guruvu garu, pain inflicts when we bind ourselves to something in particular.
He says, life is sound only when we can experience God everywhere.

Who knows?! I might be doing something bigger and better.

I certainly don't know what's been waiting for me in store, but am more than willing to explore it when God lets me in ♥

Confession..

I hate myself for living the day of bitter most realization of my life.
I hate myself for letting it happen.

I met Sai some 12 years ago (as far as my foolish knowledge is concerned :| )
Loved His ideology :)
All He said was to have Sraddha, boundless faith and Saburi, unmoved patience.
It sounded easy to me.
And it is :) :d

One can own Him by simply thinking of Him.
Nothing else.

And I owned Him, for sometime.
He loved me in a way, I could never find words to describe.
He cared for me as if am His only concern in the whole world.
He used to talk to me.
He used to find ways to show me how important I am to Him.
And He made me realize, with out Him, I am nothing.

I couldn't decide now, if I intentionally let myself move slowly away from Him.

But the damage is done.

I miss Him. Al the way.

Even now, I start my day after wishing Him a good morning, and end my day wishing Him good night.

I remember Him, all the time, but I know, I admit, something is missing.

I just took advantage of His closeness, I took it for granted.
And now the problem is, even though He's just the same with me, no matter how foolish to ignore Him, but I am no longer the same. I couldn't hear Him anymore.

It's purely my mistake and I pay for it now.

Still, as He's sweeter than a child, He didn't even take a moments time to forgive me :D
And am welcome into His warmest of hugs again :D

I am crazy about Him, and I pray that I should stay the same :)

I also assign Him the duty of keeping me straight.

Once you own Him, He'll be all yours forever.

After all, He's God, the Almighty, not a man, like you or me.

Now, I confess He's the best thing of my life :)

Books

Special thanks to books..

If you're my reader for a long time, by now, you wouldn't be surprised if I say " I'm far more than crazy about books."
Now, I feel gratified to express my gratitude toward books.

They not only provide me the support and company when I feel necessarily/unnecessarily isolated, also they make me. They make me complete.
It's a continual process, of which I'm genuinely proud.

Following is the best reason for why I love reading so much in addition to the solace they provide me:

"Books give me the reap prospective of life, so when I've to react to something, I can do it the best way possible"

Savouring

Yesterday on the account of fasting I didn't eat anything all the day.
I usually break my fast in the evening, either at college canteen or at home, depends on my stomach's pleas to feed it.
I don't restrict myself so much though, if I feel like eating, I simply will, with out hesitation.
After all, I believe, whatever we do must take us closer to, not away from, God ♥

I was in bus then, when a student in the past cum a colleague in the present offered me a chocolate.
I took, ate and enjoyed every bite of it.

Then this thought occurred to me immediately.

I savoured the moment ♥

I enjoyed eating the chocolate, but not just that.
I ate it in less than 5 mins time, but its taste lingered ♥

More than the act of eating, the realization of my ability to enjoy things at the most made me very joyous.

I felt good.
My heart lightened,
my lips curved,
and my eyes brightened.

All at once, at one simple thought.

P.S. I wasn't actually hungry then, cuz I had a plate of Pani Puri before entering the bus :P

Life !!

Life is either simple or complex,
It's just what you think it is !!

Life brings you the joy or misery,
It's just what you'd like to cherish !!

Life presents you with the roses or thorns,
It's just how you'd deal with !!

Life is something or everything,
It's just what you are capable of making out !!

Life can be loved or hated,
It's purely your choice that determines everything else !!

Life's nothing but a bunch of choices we make, through out our life, which would either make us glad or sad.
None other than us are responsible for every sec of our own life.

Having a life is living it with total freedom and awareness.
And that comes when we develop a bond ( of any sort, I say ) with eternity.

P.S. Knowing that we're too minute in the universe minimizes the time and chances to dislike something !! And that's quite a tool for living without bounds !!  ♥

Enlightenment !!

I've never felt so serene lately. 
I know nothing about Him except that he encouraged oneness and non violence, I don't meditate either, but this pic has got something ♥
I wonder whether I'd reach that state in my life ever.

All I knew is I 

am meant to follow Sai and reach Him :)

Now am hoping that, when I reach Sai, I'd have a chance to meet Buddha there too :D:D

That's really an awesome pic 

♥
Totally peaceful ♥ 
And attracting the souls towards Him ♥ 

Any pain, or any sort of sorrow can be easily erased if this is pic is seen for a while ♥

Peace, love and suffering are reflective ♥ 
The more you give, the more you receive ♥ ( in both senses, i.e; positive and negative )
We ought to decide in what way our soul would lighten and sparkle ♥

What would satisfy us at the most, and what would bring the real "us" from us.

Know within ♥ and we've no more to know about  ♥ 

So many thanks to Crisshna Calyan :) May God bless yu CC to find more such eternal pics and share to us :) :D

Seeking help of this post :)

I am currently thinking of a situation which is not welcome by my heart.
I just want myself to let go of it, but I fail, repeatedly. And it started to worry me more than it should.
I am someone who acts according to will, and I am so proud of that quality in me.
I decide, I do and I am done. I'm more than happy with this ritual.
I consider many things before I decide which helps me stick to my decision firmly.
I never had to curse myself when it comes to deciding.

I believe, in Sai, who's more than just God to me, and He taught me in many ways, that everything happens for a reason.
It helps me from shrinking when I'm in agony.
It helps me keep the pace irrespective of what they're doing to me.
I can accept anything and everything with a smile, knowing that, there's nothing too important than Sai, who could undoubtedly stay with me even after my life ends.

Now I question myself, when I couldn't help doing the same thing which I planned not to, am I a true believer of magic that can happen ?!
Yes, I am but am acting like some one who doesn't.

And it scared me to the death.
It felt like a punch in my stomach.
It made me curse myself for a moment.

And I realized again, that, no one could ever hurt you with out your consent.

I allowed it to happen, but that's not my mistake.
After all, life's a flow.

May be Sai wanted to teach me some thing important.
He did the same earlier too.
He has His own methodologies of teaching me.

If the lesson can be easily learned, He creates a situation from which I can learn what He intended to teach and makes me realize it myself.

Otherwise He simply strikes me, not in the face, in the heart, to make sure that the lesson was imprinted properly so as to save me from any further similar kind of pain.

I am thankful to Him with all my senses but I know it's not enough.

He will only be satisfied when I prove myself worthy of next lesson by quickly grasping the current one.

Such a greatest Guru I'm blessed with ♥ 

Worth noting..

Umm, I felt like writing some thing the very moment I saw it :)


Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing.
Two sentences most meaningfully connected in a wonderful way.

It made me wonder, just, am I doing all the things worthy every day?!
Sure, I do so many things, get up, dress up, go to college, walk and talk wd people, wish and greet them, and smile too. I do all these with out respect to my current mood.
That's the point here.


In a sense, in my 24 hrs a day time, leaving my 8 hrs sleeping time, there are yet 16 hrs remaining.
And in those 16 hrs may be 2 or 3 hrs I enjoy to the core.
Wishing my daddy good morning when I wake up, when I read, and listen to music, and when am talking to those who have a strong impact in my life, I be myself.
And I cherish myself.


I can make it to 5 hrs. Cause I love almost everything around me which gives me a chance of staying thankful to The Great Almighty.


Even then there are still 11 hrs am wasting by not entirely living them.
I realize, now, that am just letting those hrs pass by without doing anything worth remembering.
Quite a pity.


So what should be done!!???


I have no idea right now, but I will think about it. :D



P.S. Thanks to Cnu who shared this pic :)

Sai and His feet :)

Guru paadaalu ♥

Anniti kante ekkuva important ♥

Having complete faith and nvr once losing patience is the way to the Almighty ♥ ♥

How much we get depends on hw strongly we believe :)

One can maintain a realtionship wd God in 9 ways :) ( Nava bhakthi vidhalu )

One can own Him in any way comfortable :D

Point is, we shud see that nothing ( even death ) cud separate us from Him ♥

His grace and my soul are tied together ♥ fr eternity ♥

Am blessed :) by Him :)


I await the moment when I can touch them and rest my soul there :)




P.S. Bless Archu, who gave me this pic and made me write this :)

Something typical..

A constant is something which never changes with time.
And conversely, a variable is something whose value keeps on changing from time to time.


I so many times heard and read  all the principles of Maths can be applied in Life.
( I don't have any idea whether doing that makes life simple or complex :P )


But the difference between a variable and a constant always amazed me for the reasons I donno :D

Now my doubt is, shud a man be constant or variable?
One can not stay the same frevr and at the same time we cant accpet if he/she kept on changing =))
Too typical fr me :P



I wish I can conclude this puzzle like question, by simply telling, as Life's a combo, everything comes together.

Life and death,

Joy and misery,

Beauty and ugliness,

Wisdom and naivety,

And Everything and nothing.

We need to accept the change cause it's the only thing unchanged in anyone's life.


We can stick to something, if changing that doesn't make any sense :)


However, accepting everything that comes our way and never once losing faith in ourselves is always the better way  ♥ ♥ ♥

Magic of Sai ♥

I have always loved this idea of something happening magically :)


People feel and appreciate it with their souls.


A good wish,
A heart that feels,
and an echo of love ♥


It's all about the magic, when two people smile at each other, what their hearts convey ♥


When I'm sitting,
when I'm thinking of nothing and everything,
and when this word MAGIC popped my mind, all I cud think of is, how magical my life with Sai is <3


I can always find Him wherever I look, always smiling at me with those beautiful and mesmerizing eyes <3
Oh !! How I wish I could melt my soul into them whenever they look into mine ♥


I wish I could merge myself with Him the way all the rivers do with The Ocean ♥


I am more than aware of it's happening one day, but the thing is I can't wait to see that REALLY happening ♥♥♥




P.S. Credits to Anusha whose writings are purely magical ♥♥

One Truth We can not escape from..

The truth never set me free.


As simple as it appears, it's the most complicated line to perceive at the fullest.


Truth. Many seek it, few found it and fewer cherish it.


Staying tied to the truth is a task which requires most of our ability.
Sometimes it may be easier, sometimes not.


That raises questions.
Why it has to be so hard when it's that essential for every human being to live with?
Why can't it be easy to find and then to keep?
Why people suffered with and for it?


Whatever the problem at hand, I've my way of simplifying :D
Everything, as far as I'm concerned, leads to God, that's Sai for me ♥


God loves us more than we do Him. Much more.


We hardly remember Him where as He thinks of us every moment ♥


The least we can do is, being thankful to Him.


The more we understand this, the more we're bound to His eternal love, and that is truth.


And once joined hands with Him, we can never be parted ♥


God's all we should be striving for, and once achieved, there'd be nothing else which makes you equally serene, equally amazing and equally pleasing. There'd not be anything you want at all.


And this is the truth ♥

I don want any next life..

I love wht He did for all the ppl then and I love wht He does fr me evryday ♥

He's everything to me ♥

Father, mother, brother, soul mate and a best friend ♥

He can be anything to me, and I love madly however He's with me ♥

All I care abt is His presence ♥ ♥


I can walk a 1000 miles and be satisfied with one of His beautiful smiles ♥
God is awesome and I drown in His love every day, every moment, every time I take a breath ♥


God is who exists in soul and found when soul is made impersonal ♥

I live with this and nothing else wud have made my life more meaningful ♥ ♥

Love yu Sai for the years to come and looking forward to meeting with Yur Highness and to rest at Yur feet ♥ ♥ >:D<


He surprises me almost every moment showing me how beautiful life could be, when in love, with God ♥


And all He says is to love and keep loving what's present and what is within ♥


I thankfully tasted Him and I can never end this ♥


I wish I cud die this moment so as to feel lighter and warmer in His heavenly hands ♥


I sure don wanna ( I don need to ) be born again for I knew my destiny and I'm damn sure of accomplishing it in this life ♥


P.S. : All credits go to CC  who presented me this pic and made me write this ♥
Bless yu my dear brother :):) May all yur doubts be answered and then vanished :)

A sweet and heart melting realization..

I stopped updating my blog since long, though it hurts me, and am here nw as I cudnt resist writing this or putting into words.

Only Sai can make me feel like this <3 so far..

Cnu made me listen to Sai bhajan at his place through phone.

It's "Om Sai, Sri Sai, Jaya Jaya Sai" <3

It made me happy. Just happy.

I loved cnu's thinking of me when he heard something about Sai <3 <3

But I was simply happy, not enthralled as I should be, so I questioned myself.

I have never been that kind of person who likes to do puja, fastings or anything like that in particular.

I gotta make it clear that I like them in many other ways for various reasons.

At my village, every special day is celebrated specially, people wait for those days, prepare themselves, invite relatives, buy new clothes and do all the stuff wd lots of commitment, which makes me adore them :D

And I even do all those things wd them, I enjoy to be a part of something they believe in so strongly <3

I'd like to see a mass of people going to temple, dressed traditionally, catching eyes and the glow in their faces when they smile at all the known ppl.

It's a village and every one knows the other person and the festive mood keeps them all happy :D I like all that :)

But I don like the idea of doing puja wd out heart and expecting God to grant all the wishes. My idea is not to offend anyone, for I know it's one of 9 ways of reaching God.

Yet it bothers me, why people don realize, that they all have to ask for is the faith in Him, and with that the'll get everything else <3

And to speak of me, Sai is not merely a God to me, but He's everything to me.

He's the only one I feel in my every breath and I just cant bring myself to think that He's only present in a temple or in a photo frame.

He's everywhere for me, and for all those who can see and feel Him.

He's in my every thought, like a child seeking his mother's attention constantly, looking after my every action :D

My best friend, best care taker and best keeper. Best of everything <3 <3

He's got His ways to appreciate me which makes me love myself even more when I happen to do good things. :D:D:D

I love Him when He gets angry when I cudnt live up to Him, uff there's no ending if I start telling/talking/typing about Him. Love of my life <3

Am happy to realize thr's such a sweet reason fr my nt going to temple as everyone does.

P.S. I loved it :D

Destiny :)

If it's the destiny which made you sad today,

the same destiny becomes responsible for making you happy the other day !!

Cheers :D

Never let your spirits down at any cost, no matter what :P

Specifically Nothing ;)

As the title of this post suggests,
I actually haven't anything specific in my mind.

But came here to share something I felt so good learning about.

I once read in Sai' s book
" Gyan is something which can be found nowhere but yourself "

and

"Guru is someone who helps us find it and after finding, to let us have it forever"

Sai is one such a great Guru to my life and I love to boast that having Him is the best thing ever happened to me in all my life.

Now today, he made me learn something, of which I'm totally unaware of it's knowledge inside me, until I said it to a brother while chatting.

Life is too short to have anything but happiness.
It's something everyone says.

But according to me, life is perfect, when you can cry, if you have to and intend to.

When you can be able to celebrate not only good things, but bad things too
( may be their meaning might change, because we cannot truly predict how things may end up )

You cry for a reason and get a chance to see how many people do really care for you and your feelings.

So, life isn't only for happiness, for the reasonable pain too.

I feel the Pain..

I sometimes feel I'm the luckiest on the earth for few reasons,
and I know they're very beautiful reasons which can keep me happy
not fr only years but for 1000's of lifetimes.

But still, sometimes, when something hurts me,
I cry, my heart pains when my eyes get wet,
and I tend to curse something of me.

I start loving myself even more, more than ever.

I congratulate myself for still I can feel the pain.
Because, I couldn't have felt it unless my heart was able to react.

And as long as it's able to react,
it can have all the love showered on me, and the whole world, by the Almighty.

So it can help me connect with the world of love,
which finally can take me to Sai, my ultimate goal.

It reminds me I shall only love people, never hate one,
so as to make my soul become eligible to rest at his foot.

I feel the pain, with gratitude.

Cheers :D

God and Peace

Even though I know, I'm not enough qualified to write on this topic, still I would love to share what I feel about God, because, He plays very important role in my life.

God, undoubtedly, gives everything.

Happiness and sorrow.
Thirst and water.
Hunger and food.
Light and darkness.Life and death.

I heard many times people questioning, if God's really out there, then why don't He comes to rescue so many people in need?

To come and help anyone, anytime, He's neither a machine nor a single persona.
He's almighty and is there in everyone.
He just lets everyone manage their lives.
He creates enough resources to use and to be utilized, enough experiences to learn from and to apply to, and enough life to lead.
He'll be helping people by creating various chances in order to get the human out of that situation.
All we need is to understand those mere blessings.
What's the need of creating so much pain in life?

We can enjoy the light only when we faced the darkness, no?!
He makes us thirsty to let us enjoy drinking water.
He makes us hungry to let us have the food.
The same way, He makes us unhappy finally to let us realize what happiness is !!
The more pain you bear, the more you'll become eligible for happiness.
It's not give and take or something.
But earning the ability to have something better.

Why is he never visible?

He's invisible, I agree, but not always.
You feed someone who's almost near the death for he lacks food, and listen to what he says.
That's God for you, appears everywhere if you truly intend to see Him.

Lovely experience..

December 10th, 2008

Hi frnds.. I’m here to share a wonderful experience with my God Sai..

I’m happy to recollect it.. It was 4years back but I still feel it with a very frsh smell.

And coming to d point, I’ve a habbit of asking permission of my Sai b4 I start anything.

I heard from my friends there’s a seminar in a college which is just 20 mins away from ours.

We wanted to go as just to go out from hostel.

I told Sai and He said me “don’t go”.

I heard Him saying that but dint care it.

I said to myself, He always stops me, as if there’s going to be a blast..
And I went.

But…can u guess what happend?

We came back coz we dint find any place to sit..

Ya, it happend and that’s why sometimes I’m very much afraid to cross His word.
He loves me after all.
He’s d best caretaker and I feel so blessed..
bye frnds, just for now..

Thanksgiving to My Dearest Sai..

December 9th, 2008

Gud mrng all my frnds, yesterday was my 23rd bday, and I felt my Sai’s care for me in every min, just every min..
He made my day in such a way that I dont need anything else other than the time being..
Thank u Sai for being my evrything and please please never think of leaving me alone, cuz I just cant imagine anything without u..
I cant stand if u r not thr supporting me..
Thank u always for evrything..
Love u, love u, love u, love u, and love u..