Saturday, April 21, 2012

One Truth We can not escape from..



The truth never set me free.


As simple as it appears, it's the most complicated line to perceive at the fullest.


Truth. Many seek it, few found it and fewer cherish it.


Staying tied to the truth is a task which requires most of our ability.
Sometimes it may be easier, sometimes not.


That raises questions.
Why it has to be so hard when it's that essential for every human being to live with?
Why can't it be easy to find and then to keep?
Why people suffered with and for it?


Whatever the problem at hand, I've my way of simplifying :D
Everything, as far as I'm concerned, leads to God, that's Sai for me 


God loves us more than we do Him. Much more.


We hardly remember Him where as He thinks of us every moment 


The least we can do is, being thankful to Him.


The more we understand this, the more we're bound to His eternal love, and that is truth.


And once joined hands with Him, we can never be parted 


God's all we should be striving for, and once achieved, there'd be nothing else which makes you equally serene, equally amazing and equally pleasing. There'd not be anything you want at all.


And this is the truth 

Thursday, April 19, 2012

One thing I never want to forget..

My family's the best as I know and I'm more than glad to do anything which makes them happy. They're impeccable in every way they love me. I couldn't even think of living without them.


But there's an issue here.


No matter how much I try to live up to them, I never satisfy them.


It annoys me that there's no comparison to how I'm and what they expect of me.


They don't want me to have any friends, even if I have, I shouldn't talk to them, even if I talk, I shouldn't laugh over something funny or enjoy so much which might draw attention.


All my life, I always find me awaiting their approval to whatever I do.


It's like, I don't deserve anyone only because I'm born a girl.
Oh, there's an exception for me, that's when I'm married, I'll have a husband.
I don't have a slightest idea he'd be fair or mean.


My question is, is it reasonable that every girl has to live with in boundaries and with whatever has been decided at the time of her birth?


I know this is nothing when compared to what I receive ( reminding you, my family's most wonderful one, and if given chance, though I don't wanna be born again, I'd choose the same family without any moment's hesitation ), but sometimes, I feel like dying rather than having to carry all this inside me.


As much as I'm worried to death about marriage, I wish I could get married and soon leave home.
( I hate this. )


And, nonetheless, I hope for a husband, who would understand me with all this, that having friends and sharing things with them, is quite as natural as breathing.
But, they say no man would be good enough to do what I will him to do. God bless me !!


It's no wonder every woman has this pain. No matter how happy and sound she appears to be.
And I'm neither a fool to think it's big problem nor I don't know it will pass.
But, I want every reader of this post to remember how difficult it is for a girl to live every minute of her life, doing things and either worrying or wondering whether it'd be okay or not. And how many heart breaks she's to survive all along, throughout her life.


I never want to forget how it feels like, to give up all the emotional needs for the sake of restrictions so as not to hurt my daughter in future.


P.S. Freedom shouldn't be given much, either. We should learn to balance many things in life and this is one of the most important. I'm willing to learn.

Friday, April 13, 2012

I don want any next life..



I love wht He did for all the ppl then and I love wht He does fr me evryday ♥

He's everything to me ♥

Father, mother, brother, soul mate and a best friend ♥

He can be anything to me, and I love madly however He's with me ♥

All I care abt is His presence ♥ ♥



I can walk a 1000 miles and be satisfied with one of His beautiful smiles ♥
God is awesome and I drown in His love every day, every moment, every time I take a breath ♥


God is who exists in soul and found when soul is made impersonal ♥

I live with this and nothing else wud have made my life more meaningful ♥ ♥

Love yu Sai for the years to come and looking forward to meeting with Yur Highness and to rest at Yur feet ♥ ♥ >:D<



He surprises me almost every moment showing me how beautiful life could be, when in love, with God 


And all He says is to love and keep loving what's present and what is within 


I thankfully tasted Him and I can never end this 


I wish I cud die this moment so as to feel lighter and warmer in His heavenly hands 


I sure don wanna ( I don need to ) be born again for I knew my destiny and I'm damn sure of accomplishing it in this life 


P.S. : All credits go to CC  who presented me this pic and made me write this 
Bless yu my dear brother :):) May all yur doubts be answered and then vanished :)

Sunday, April 8, 2012

What matters the most !!




Umm happiness is one thing we can find only within ourselves just like we do find God.
No matter what we do, or how we do, if we do it with our heart and soul then happiness and we can belong to each other.



:D :D :D



Feeling all the things around us makes our prsence matter.
There’s a lot of difference we can make just by looking at people not plainly but with a look that can make them feel special. It’s all what you can do.



Thinking of someone we love the most when we come across a thing that we have an idea that they would love to have it <3 or they deserve it <3 or we can make them smile or surprise them.
Iit’s the best of making someone feel they deserve to be loved <3 <3 I love this :D



Yu can be in the air, or do whatever yu want/wish to if yu intend to <3
It’s again present within onself, the intention.
How much yu’re gonna have entirely depends on how much yu really want it, or atleast yu’ve to make yurslef believe yu want it so badly that not having it makes yur life worthless.
The strong desire is all we need to accomplish things.

Stay blessed <3


  Enjoy !!! <3 

After all life's all we got, let's prove it worthy <3 <3

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Living Life LivelY :)



Life can be lived anyway. It's by pure chance, not by fate, that one is very happy and the other is pretty miserable.


One should not forget God gave us this Life with all His love, no less, no more.
We can never know what it takes Him to 1st create a life and then to associate it with all we need to keep out lives going. And there're millions pf people on the earth, He looks after everyone with out a slightest complaint.


Life's all one could get, though  for only once, it can be made to cherish for a lifetime. If only, one can see the God and praise Him in everything he sees every moment.
This beauty, this pain and this knowledge. This awareness. This ability to feel good from bad.


I pray every one be blessed with this, may their hearts be shining, and they never let go of what they will come across when they shake their hands with the Almighty, who exists within oneself.


Finding a companion with who we can continue our journey with all the heart and happiness  to ultimate destiny is best of all the things that could happen in a life.


<3 <3 <3

Only for me, for now !



There can be a 100 things one can keep to himself and he's best at it :)


There could be any reason for why one needs to be alone sometimes, keeping all his/her thoughts to themselves. It's more like an art.










We can not deny the fact that few things persist to annoy us, the inequalities, the ignorance, and foolishness.








When one person is bearing so much pain, it doesn't mean he's afraid of fighting against it. Sometimes, there can be better ideas than fighting.








But, once done with all the patience, no one could stop anyone to do everything that's needed to make things right.






And finally there's nothing like solitude <3
All the happiness, people usually look out for, on the outside, is only found inside <3
When a person is truly aware of this, there would be nothing else for him to know.





Friday, April 6, 2012

Am so excited about this :)

Today, when Archu and Seenu gave ( I prefer gifted :d ) me some of most dazzling pics of Pawan Kalyan, I thot of doing this <3


Thanks to both of them <3


I have a lot to share, as I love him for so many reasons <3 and each reason presents a new lesson which undoubtedly lasts for my lifetime <3 :):)



Unfinished Business By Nora Roberts :)





Vanessa is a 24 yr old, world famous key board player, a simple girl with wonderful heart that can be incurably hurt when she is forced to leave her mother, town in which she grew up, and her high school sweet heart Brady behind.


Vanessa leaves the place when she was 16 and after 8 years she comes back, after her father's death, to find few answers to her questions. 


Loretta, Vanessa's mother, finds it difficult to patch up all the lost years with her only daughter.


They missed each other so much, are terribly needed by each other, and they by force made apart.


Vanessa wants to know why her mother let her go?


Loretta has her reasons not to interfere with her husband's decision.


Vanessa's father is himself a very good keyboard player but it annoys him that after some time he fails.
He wants to realize his dreams in his only daughter. And then he finds something about his wife, of her affair which she makes out of loneliness, he takes their daughter with him and block all the letters Loretta writes to Vanessa in all the years.


Joannie is Vanessa's best friend in their school, and Brady is Joannies' brother :D


Brady and Vanessa fall in love when he's 18 and she's 16 and they dream so many things of their wonderful future together. Brady promises her to take to his prom and fails her.
She couldn't forgive him for that and after this, she leaves the place.


Brady was attractive and reckless, and after all these years he becomes responsible and remains attractive only to make things difficult for her :P


But she has no plans to give him another chance to break her heart again. Not until he no longer bears her rejection and explains her the reason behind his absence that night. Vanessa's father gets him arrested, that night, for he sees Brady may stand in his path of making his daughter shine like a star with all the reputation she's due to receive.


Even after everything seems to be settled, Vanessa still finds it difficult to agree for a marriage as she could not forget her parents failed marriage.


She doubts herself whether she could handle it or not.


Then she meets Gabriella, Princess of Cordonia ( Bennets' sister in the Playboy Prince :d ) and learns one can not hold onto past so much that one may lose the present or future.


Clearing all her doubts, she happily falls in the arms of Brady :D <3


And they live happily ever after :):)





Thursday, April 5, 2012

College Road Trip





Umm, a daddy and daughter story <3 <3


Melanie is the daughter. James is the daddy.


Like all the other fathers, Jack is over protective of her.
He could not let her out of his sight.


Melanie is 17 yr old, graduates from high school, plans to go study in an university (dint remember the name, bt is far away from her home ) . James does not accept.


She's not ready to give up all her plans.
But at the same time, she does not want to upset her daddy.


She proposes to go on a road trip visiting colleges with her friends, so she can decide better.


He agrees, but surprises her at the last moment, informing her, he would all be plaesed to accompany her =))


Melanie  :O
Her Mom : "He never changes" look.
James : "What's wrong?" look.


Having little choice, Melanie agrees to go with him and they start off :D


Melanie becomes furious when she learns that James tries to manipulate her thoughts by stopping at a college on the way only because it is near home.


They continue their journey, however :)


They stop at James's mother's residence on the way.


Melanie's grand mother observes everything that's going on in between her son and her grand daughter. She made a talk with her son.
She carefully chooses her words to make her son understand that, at some point in their lives, parents have to let their children go, only to make their lives better.


She confesses she was afraid to death when she has to let go of her son when he chooses to join Military but she overcame it. If not, her son wouldn't have been this happy if he cudnt have realized one of his biggest dreams.




Umm thinking this over, he could clearly see what his daughter is capable of, and that she can handle her life even without him at her hand.


>:D<


They end up attending the interview in the university of Melanie's choice :D

Nim's Island :)


I watched this in summer holidays in Star movies channel.


I loved it for the 1st time I watched it and whenever I could manage, I watch it again :d


Jack is a scientist lives on an isolated island with his only daughter.
She has friends there and her name is Nim <3
They live there happily, not bothering about the noisy world.


On the other side of world lives, Alexandra Rover, a writer, whose books are famous Alex Rover's adventures, but she's not adventurous, rather she's afraid of everything. I donno if they have a name for it, but she keeps herself locked in her home, gets everything she requires delivered at her doorstep.


Nim's a fan of her.


Knowing this, Jack once made a contact with Alexandra through e-mail. She replies. And when she needs to clarify something scientific before she could write it in her books, she asks Jack.


Both Jack and Nim mistake her for a male for all they know about her is through books and there she gives her name to be Alex Rover, not Alexandra.


Once Jack goes to land to buy some necessities for their home and Nim waves him good bye.
He promises to be back as soon as possible.
But he gets caught in a storm and loses his boat, and thus could not make it easy to reach home. But he never gives in, as he's well aware of Nim's awaiting him, or his call.


Days pass without information from Jack to Nim.


Nim gets worried, writes to Alexandra, about the situation.


Although Alexandra could nt even step out from her home, she decides to travel all the way around the globe to reach Nim, to assure her everything is okay, only to keep up the confidence Nim has put in her. Umm.


And all she receives from Nim when reached is the despise. Nim jus could not accept her for Alexandra is not at all the way she hoped for. However they spent the night together.
Nim finds comfort in Alex's saying nothing would/could go wrong with Jack and that he sure will find a way to return home, to his daughter.


In the morning, Jack finally makes it to home :D
Only to find a companion for her daughter :D:D
Nim wonders what type of pair they would make, a scientist and a writer :D:D
And from then on, they live together. <3



Movies I watched and Loved :D


With the courtesy of these both channels I watch English movies and when I learn many things from them, I'd like to share :D:D


I'll do it, if not for others, for myself to recollect those beautiful moments <3 <3

Playboy Prince By Nora Roberts..





This book, after certain amount of time, made me sit wd it until the end.
I cudn't jus keep it aside <3

It had all the ingredients I hope fr "my kinda book"

So the title role is played by Bennet,Prince of Cordonia :) who is second in line to the throne, loves his country and family, very dutiful and responsible bt annoyed a bit wd all the restrictions a prince must follow.

And he's good wd women ;) ( title justification :P )
But that doesn't mean he plays them. He adores them enough that every woman he grows an interest in, comes to him herself. Whatever that means =))

He's sensitive enough to stare at blossoming flowers fr hours.
He's strong enough to fight demons against his country.
He's loyal enough to give up his most favorite freedom fr the sake of country.

And he's good enough fr a woman like Hannah, despite her goal, duty at hand and her very strong background, fall for him helplessly <3

Hannah is plain, not at all his type. She's present in the palace to be helpful to Eve, Bennet's sister in law, wife of Alex, carrying. Hannah is asked to visit their palace and to stay fr few months.

Bennet finds her very boring when he 1st meets her, but later, something abt her starts to interest him.

She, knowing it wud only cause trouble, tries hard to avoid him. But he's persistent :D

She hurts him once too badly that he himself thot nvr to bother her again.

But he cudn't give her up, jus like that. He wants to clear it, apologizes to her fr his behavior, promises to behave and asks if they cud be friends. She accepts. What choice dis she have? For she already starts loving him, bt for a hundred reasons she keeps it to herself.

She's an agent and is there in the palace for a purpose. To save the Royal family. From Deboque. Villain in our story, who can kill fr both pleasure and profit.

She works out for 2 years on this assignment, gains Deboque's confidence, and then entering the palace as on Deboque's plan. When she has her own plans.
She's on good side, feeding Deboque the false information and keeping his every move monitored by the security system of the palace.

So, when all these things are happening, Bennet falls in love wd her. He breaks his heart when he accidentally comes to know what she is for real.

He feels like cheated, and curses both himself and her.

Bt still he cudnt stop loving her which only mounts when his father explains why she's to keep everything from him.

Finally, he loves both the parts of her, meaning, everything abt her, and he clears all her doubts abt their marriage and they get happily married after seeing to the end of Deboque.

Tht's all <3 But thr's so much to cherish <3 <3 :) :)

Sunday, April 1, 2012

A sweet and heart melting realization..

I stopped updating my blog since long, though it hurts me, and am here nw as I cudnt resist writing this or putting into words.

Only Sai can make me feel like this <3 so far..

Cnu made me listen to Sai bhajan at his place through phone.
It's "Om Sai, Sri Sai, Jaya Jaya Sai" <3

It made me happy. Just happy.

I loved cnu's thinking of me when he heard something about Sai <3 <3

But I was simply happy, not enthralled as I should be, so I questioned myself.

I have never been that kind of person who likes to do puja, fastings or anything like that in particular.

I gotta make it clear that I like them in many other ways for various reasons.
At my village, every special day is celebrated specially, people wait for those days, prepare themselves, invite relatives, buy new clothes and do all the stuff wd lots of commitment, which makes me adore them :D

And I even do all those things wd them, I enjoy to be a part of something they believe in so strongly <3

I'd like to see a mass of people going to temple, dressed traditionally, catching eyes and the glow in their faces when they smile at all the known ppl.
It's a village and every one knows the other person and the festive mood keeps them all happy :D I like all that :)

But I don like the idea of doing puja wd out heart and expecting God to grant all the wishes. My idea is not to offend anyone, for I know it's one of 9 ways of reaching God.

Yet it bothers me, why people don realize, that they all have to ask for is the faith in Him, and with that the'll get everything else <3

And to speak of me, Sai is not merely a God to me, but He's everything to me.

He's the only one I feel in my every breath and I just cant bring myself to think that He's only present in a temple or in a photo frame.

He's everywhere for me, and for all those who can see and feel Him.

He's in my every thought, like a child seeking his mother's attention constantly, looking after my every action :D

My best friend, best care taker and best keeper. Best of everything <3 <3

He's got His ways to appreciate me which makes me love myself even more when I happen to do good things. :D:D:D

I love Him when He gets angry when I cudnt live up to Him, uff there's no ending if I start telling/talking/typing about Him. Love of my life <3

Am happy to realize thr's such a sweet reason fr my nt going to temple as everyone does.

P.S. I loved it :D