Hoping to have a same kinda year, where I can mess up things, where I can always expect my people to forgive me, and where Sai holds me every moment..
Lets see..
Happy New Year 2011 :)
Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Love..
Love provides unique experience to every individual.
Some sing, some paint, and some write poetry to express it.
My dad makes my life, yet another way, his own.
Some sing, some paint, and some write poetry to express it.
My dad makes my life, yet another way, his own.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
The Last Song..
Loved the book to the core :)
It's the 1st book, I felt, not even a word is wasted.Every line and every page has it's own purpose and a special way to touch the hearts.
Ronnie, a 17yr old girl, matured enough, independent, caring, lovable, adorable, funny, honest and so on.. was angry with her father, stops talking to him for 3 years, as she believes he divorced her mother, and left the family for his own sake, which ,she learns later, is not true.
Her father, Steve, is a pianist, for whom music is life, who's awaiting to feel God's presence on the earth, and who loves Ronnie and, his only son, Jonah, 10 yr old, more than life itself.
When everything was going well, Ronnie learns Piano from her father and is very good at it.But she stops playing it when she gets angry with her father.Which adds to the Steve's pain of missing his family.
One day, he comes to know, he's in advanced stage of throat cancer and left only few days to live.
When informing this to his ex-wife, Kim, requests her to let the children spend the summer with him. And he asks her not to tell them about his health.
He lives in South Carolina, a beach town.
Ronnie, reluctantly agrees to come down, as she had no choice of deciding, as she was still 17 then, where as Jonah was happy to spend with his father.
Ronnie, comes to like her father for his ultimate love and forgiveness.
She falls in love with Will, 18 yr old, who loves her back.
They both share such a sweet love, which lasts for their life times.
Jonah admits he never wanna leave the place though he misses his mom.
Seems, everything is fair until they come to know the truth, that their father is going to die soon.
Jonah was too young to understand anything and Ronnie's heart breaks as she realizes how much pain she caused to her dad.
Summer comes to end, so their time of being together.
Ronnie, by then, completes 18 years and now is an adult, who can decide things for herself.
She insists to stay with her dad, to treasure the last moments and to take care of him.
Having no other choice, Jonah, leaves to New York, with his mother.
Ronnie plays the Piano for him and completes the song, which her dad started and left because of his ill-health. Which is their last song.
Steve realizes God is always, everywhere, and He'll answer to every question, and answer can be heard with the heart, not ears.
And he passes away, peacefully, feeling he's the most luckiest father.
Superb Book :) Bless Nicholas Sparks :)
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Specifically Nothing ;)
As the title of this post suggests,
I actually haven't anything specific in my mind.
But came here to share something I felt so good learning about.
I once read in Sai' s book
" Gyan is something which can be found nowhere but yourself "
and
"Guru is someone who helps us find it and after finding, to let us have it forever"
Sai is one such a great Guru to my life and I love to boast that having Him is the best thing ever happened to me in all my life.
Now today, he made me learn something, of which I'm totally unaware of it's knowledge inside me, until I said it to a brother while chatting.
Life is too short to have anything but happiness.
It's something everyone says.
But according to me, life is perfect, when you can cry, if you have to and intend to.
When you can be able to celebrate not only good things, but bad things too
( may be their meaning might change, because we cannot truly predict how things may end up )
You cry for a reason and get a chance to see how many people do really care for you and your feelings.
So, life isn't only for happiness, for the reasonable pain too.
I actually haven't anything specific in my mind.
But came here to share something I felt so good learning about.
I once read in Sai' s book
" Gyan is something which can be found nowhere but yourself "
and
"Guru is someone who helps us find it and after finding, to let us have it forever"
Sai is one such a great Guru to my life and I love to boast that having Him is the best thing ever happened to me in all my life.
Now today, he made me learn something, of which I'm totally unaware of it's knowledge inside me, until I said it to a brother while chatting.
Life is too short to have anything but happiness.
It's something everyone says.
But according to me, life is perfect, when you can cry, if you have to and intend to.
When you can be able to celebrate not only good things, but bad things too
( may be their meaning might change, because we cannot truly predict how things may end up )
You cry for a reason and get a chance to see how many people do really care for you and your feelings.
So, life isn't only for happiness, for the reasonable pain too.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Waiting for someone :)
Waiting for someone
P.S. I don't mind even if some mentioned qualities are missed, if he sure knows he deserves me.
- In whose company, I don't have to pretend I'm happy when I'm not :D
- Who can let me read whenever I want to :P
- *Who can understand my relation with Sai ( Most Important ) ** :)
- Who can respect my parents as I'm gonna do his parents :)
- Who can love me the same even when I looked like a devil (my dad's one who did that, and I'd like my man to do the same) ;) :D
- Who can make me laugh like never before but who never makes fun of my emotions. :| :P
- Who can fight with me for silly reasons, and who wouldn't be ashamed to apologize, irrespective of whose mistake it was ;)
- Who can enjoy the silent messages that go around through eyes when we're not talking :)
- Who can wipe my tears gently with his hands hugging me :) ;)
- Who can never afford to lose me for anything in the world :)
- Lastly, who can let me adopt one child ( my biggest dream ) ..
P.S. I don't mind even if some mentioned qualities are missed, if he sure knows he deserves me.
I feel the Pain..
I sometimes feel I'm the luckiest on the earth for few reasons,
and I know they're very beautiful reasons which can keep me happy
not fr only years but for 1000's of lifetimes.
But still, sometimes, when something hurts me,
I cry, my heart pains when my eyes get wet,
and I tend to curse something of me.
I start loving myself even more, more than ever.
I congratulate myself for still I can feel the pain.
Because, I couldn't have felt it unless my heart was able to react.
And as long as it's able to react,
it can have all the love showered on me, and the whole world, by the Almighty.
So it can help me connect with the world of love,
which finally can take me to Sai, my ultimate goal.
It reminds me I shall only love people, never hate one,
so as to make my soul become eligible to rest at his foot.
I feel the pain, with gratitude.
Cheers :D
and I know they're very beautiful reasons which can keep me happy
not fr only years but for 1000's of lifetimes.
But still, sometimes, when something hurts me,
I cry, my heart pains when my eyes get wet,
and I tend to curse something of me.
I start loving myself even more, more than ever.
I congratulate myself for still I can feel the pain.
Because, I couldn't have felt it unless my heart was able to react.
And as long as it's able to react,
it can have all the love showered on me, and the whole world, by the Almighty.
So it can help me connect with the world of love,
which finally can take me to Sai, my ultimate goal.
It reminds me I shall only love people, never hate one,
so as to make my soul become eligible to rest at his foot.
I feel the pain, with gratitude.
Cheers :D
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Hate Sundays :(
Hm, Yeah I do hate Sundays :(
I had been hating them for years, only thing that changed is the reason for why I do hate them.
When I was in hostel, used to come home for the weekend, I had to start for the college, Monday at 6 A.M, so I can reach college at 8 A.M.
It was like a ritual and I continued to do the same, all those years.
Eventually it made me love Saturdays and hate Sundays :|
I experienced how it would feel when your heart filled with a lot of grief :(
I love my hostel life so much that even sometimes I feel bore at home, but it doesn't alter anything about my hating Sundays. Ufff.. :(
Hm, now, since 2007, I'm staying home.
The same deep agony pained me, even after returning home.
May be it's my mind that's tuned according to hate Sundays.
Hm, whatever, today, again a Sunday, I've got a new reason to hate it. :X
I was irritated for no reason, and what bothered me is, no one in my dearest family seemed to care enough of it.
I know, nothing can make me very happy but their smile for me and nothing can stop them doing anything for me.
I know, I mean life to them.
I know, it hurts them like hell, when I'm not well.
I know they're the only people to who I can do all stupid things, still expect them to love me.
I know they forgive me so quickly that I start bothering them too early after I dragged them to hell.
I know, I know, I really do know...
But I could not help crying, while typing this, totally cursing myself for doing so. :(
They left me alone :|
May be, they thought I've grown up so well that I can manage myself.
May be, they thought I don't need them to care for me.
May be it's because, I'm gonna cross my 25Th birthday soon.
May be that's true. Hope so.
But I'll be in need of them forever. Forever means forever.
I don't think they don't know that.
And the other thing I'm sure about is, they'll always be there for me.
I know it's happened just like that.
For, I could never gonna let them know of my need of them staying by my side.
I don't have to, as a matter of fact.
But I hate Sundays. Huh. Nothing is ever gonna change it. :|
Get lost you Sunday :| RIP
I had been hating them for years, only thing that changed is the reason for why I do hate them.
When I was in hostel, used to come home for the weekend, I had to start for the college, Monday at 6 A.M, so I can reach college at 8 A.M.
It was like a ritual and I continued to do the same, all those years.
Eventually it made me love Saturdays and hate Sundays :|
I experienced how it would feel when your heart filled with a lot of grief :(
I love my hostel life so much that even sometimes I feel bore at home, but it doesn't alter anything about my hating Sundays. Ufff.. :(
Hm, now, since 2007, I'm staying home.
The same deep agony pained me, even after returning home.
May be it's my mind that's tuned according to hate Sundays.
Hm, whatever, today, again a Sunday, I've got a new reason to hate it. :X
I was irritated for no reason, and what bothered me is, no one in my dearest family seemed to care enough of it.
I know, nothing can make me very happy but their smile for me and nothing can stop them doing anything for me.
I know, I mean life to them.
I know, it hurts them like hell, when I'm not well.
I know they're the only people to who I can do all stupid things, still expect them to love me.
I know they forgive me so quickly that I start bothering them too early after I dragged them to hell.
I know, I know, I really do know...
But I could not help crying, while typing this, totally cursing myself for doing so. :(
They left me alone :|
May be, they thought I've grown up so well that I can manage myself.
May be, they thought I don't need them to care for me.
May be it's because, I'm gonna cross my 25Th birthday soon.
May be that's true. Hope so.
But I'll be in need of them forever. Forever means forever.
I don't think they don't know that.
And the other thing I'm sure about is, they'll always be there for me.
I know it's happened just like that.
For, I could never gonna let them know of my need of them staying by my side.
I don't have to, as a matter of fact.
But I hate Sundays. Huh. Nothing is ever gonna change it. :|
Get lost you Sunday :| RIP
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
God and Peace
Even though I know, I'm not enough qualified to write on this topic, still I would love to share what I feel about God, because, He plays very important role in my life.
God, undoubtedly, gives everything.
Happiness and sorrow.
Thirst and water.
Hunger and food.
Light and darkness.Life and death.
I heard many times people questioning, if God's really out there, then why don't He comes to rescue so many people in need?
To come and help anyone, anytime, He's neither a machine nor a single persona.
He's almighty and is there in everyone.
He just lets everyone manage their lives.
He creates enough resources to use and to be utilized, enough experiences to learn from and to apply to, and enough life to lead.
He'll be helping people by creating various chances in order to get the human out of that situation.
All we need is to understand those mere blessings.
What's the need of creating so much pain in life?
We can enjoy the light only when we faced the darkness, no?!
He makes us thirsty to let us enjoy drinking water.
He makes us hungry to let us have the food.
The same way, He makes us unhappy finally to let us realize what happiness is !!
The more pain you bear, the more you'll become eligible for happiness.
It's not give and take or something.
But earning the ability to have something better.
Why is he never visible?
He's invisible, I agree, but not always.
You feed someone who's almost near the death for he lacks food, and listen to what he says.
That's God for you, appears everywhere if you truly intend to see Him.
God, undoubtedly, gives everything.
Happiness and sorrow.
Thirst and water.
Hunger and food.
Light and darkness.Life and death.
I heard many times people questioning, if God's really out there, then why don't He comes to rescue so many people in need?
To come and help anyone, anytime, He's neither a machine nor a single persona.
He's almighty and is there in everyone.
He just lets everyone manage their lives.
He creates enough resources to use and to be utilized, enough experiences to learn from and to apply to, and enough life to lead.
He'll be helping people by creating various chances in order to get the human out of that situation.
All we need is to understand those mere blessings.
What's the need of creating so much pain in life?
We can enjoy the light only when we faced the darkness, no?!
He makes us thirsty to let us enjoy drinking water.
He makes us hungry to let us have the food.
The same way, He makes us unhappy finally to let us realize what happiness is !!
The more pain you bear, the more you'll become eligible for happiness.
It's not give and take or something.
But earning the ability to have something better.
Why is he never visible?
He's invisible, I agree, but not always.
You feed someone who's almost near the death for he lacks food, and listen to what he says.
That's God for you, appears everywhere if you truly intend to see Him.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Sensitiveness..
What do you think sensitiveness is ???!!
You get hurt for some reason, tears roll in your eyes, and is that sensitiveness?
Your buddy is not talking with you,
You're not home,
You're not getting paid well,
You're not being treated well,
and so on . . .
Is that all?
Hmm, for me, it's not all.
The reasons whatever mentioned above do not qualify the quality of being sensitive.
You get injured, you could not bear the pain anymore, and you tend to cry.
That's the most obvious thing in the world.
You don't have to be sensitive.
The reason you're human is enough for that.
Sensitiveness is the ability to react.
You see someone drunk, on footpath, having no one to care for him, flies running over his wounds, and he's unaware of what's been happening to him.
You wanna help him out, but you're helpless.
You watch kids being punished not for their mistake, if clearly asked, the reason is they're poor. And they don't go to school, won't be able to learn geography and science, and play with all other kids of their age.
you wanna stop it, but you can not do anything at times.
In many other likewise cases, you might feel helpless, and out of helplessness, you curse yourself.
And watching a sunrise, feeling the warmth around you, the love being showered upon the world from the almighty.
You hug yourself when you feel good about something and because you're able to feel it.
You help someone, you enjoy the light in their eyes, you smile at yourself as you deserve a blessing.
You're totally shrunk in your work, all you need is some relaxation, you thank your colleague with all your heart, when he/she offers some help.
Whether it be anything, being able to react, is my meaning of sensitiveness.
P.S. Pawan Kalyan is the most sensitive man I ever saw.
You get hurt for some reason, tears roll in your eyes, and is that sensitiveness?
Your buddy is not talking with you,
You're not home,
You're not getting paid well,
You're not being treated well,
and so on . . .
Is that all?
Hmm, for me, it's not all.
The reasons whatever mentioned above do not qualify the quality of being sensitive.
You get injured, you could not bear the pain anymore, and you tend to cry.
That's the most obvious thing in the world.
You don't have to be sensitive.
The reason you're human is enough for that.
Sensitiveness is the ability to react.
You see someone drunk, on footpath, having no one to care for him, flies running over his wounds, and he's unaware of what's been happening to him.
You wanna help him out, but you're helpless.
You watch kids being punished not for their mistake, if clearly asked, the reason is they're poor. And they don't go to school, won't be able to learn geography and science, and play with all other kids of their age.
you wanna stop it, but you can not do anything at times.
In many other likewise cases, you might feel helpless, and out of helplessness, you curse yourself.
And watching a sunrise, feeling the warmth around you, the love being showered upon the world from the almighty.
You hug yourself when you feel good about something and because you're able to feel it.
You help someone, you enjoy the light in their eyes, you smile at yourself as you deserve a blessing.
You're totally shrunk in your work, all you need is some relaxation, you thank your colleague with all your heart, when he/she offers some help.
Whether it be anything, being able to react, is my meaning of sensitiveness.
P.S. Pawan Kalyan is the most sensitive man I ever saw.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Am so lucky :) :D
Am so lucky !! Yes, I'm !!!
Not just because, I'm living this moment and very aware of my life's worth on this planet :P
But for having attained the most loving brothers possible on earth.
I know, every other girl having a brother is also lucky, but I've no doubt, in my case, it's a lot different.
A brother can protect as we know, but, my brothers make me see the world through their eyes.
They attend to me long before the problem even starts to arrive at me.
I shed a tear, I know they will be there to wipe it off.
I crack a joke, I know they will be there to enjoy it, no matter how stupid it was.
I write something, I know they will be there to applaud, even if it's not that good.
I doubt something, I know they will be there to clarify me, not just regarding that particular issue, but also whatever made me doubt it.
I get something, it makes them happy more than myself and even more than who helped me achieve it.
I can share anything and everything with them without a slightest doubt.
I never knew, depending on someone so much can be the loveliest reason to lead the life with more laughter.
Now, I came to know, life's a lot easier when we've someone to share it with.
I wrote this for two very special brothers, Seenu and Praveen.
Love you both so much >:D< :)
Not just because, I'm living this moment and very aware of my life's worth on this planet :P
But for having attained the most loving brothers possible on earth.
I know, every other girl having a brother is also lucky, but I've no doubt, in my case, it's a lot different.
A brother can protect as we know, but, my brothers make me see the world through their eyes.
They attend to me long before the problem even starts to arrive at me.
I shed a tear, I know they will be there to wipe it off.
I crack a joke, I know they will be there to enjoy it, no matter how stupid it was.
I write something, I know they will be there to applaud, even if it's not that good.
I doubt something, I know they will be there to clarify me, not just regarding that particular issue, but also whatever made me doubt it.
I get something, it makes them happy more than myself and even more than who helped me achieve it.
I can share anything and everything with them without a slightest doubt.
I never knew, depending on someone so much can be the loveliest reason to lead the life with more laughter.
Now, I came to know, life's a lot easier when we've someone to share it with.
I wrote this for two very special brothers, Seenu and Praveen.
Love you both so much >:D< :)
Why I re - Read :D
I already told you I love reading, right?!
Now here's the reason why I read some books again and again.
Actually I love books for not what they contain, but for the way they ( writers ) make the content reach hearts.
Love narration more than the material.
Because, I love feelings, and how they travel from mind to mind, heart to heart and finally eyes to brain.
So it does not matter to me how many times I read the same, as long as I can feel something new, every time I read.
Now here's the reason why I read some books again and again.
Actually I love books for not what they contain, but for the way they ( writers ) make the content reach hearts.
Love narration more than the material.
Because, I love feelings, and how they travel from mind to mind, heart to heart and finally eyes to brain.
So it does not matter to me how many times I read the same, as long as I can feel something new, every time I read.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Lovely experience..
December 10th, 2008
Hi frnds.. I’m here to share a wonderful experience with my God Sai..
I’m happy to recollect it.. It was 4years back but I still feel it with a very frsh smell.
And coming to d point, I’ve a habbit of asking permission of my Sai b4 I start anything.
I heard from my friends there’s a seminar in a college which is just 20 mins away from ours.
We wanted to go as just to go out from hostel.
I told Sai and He said me “don’t go”.
I heard Him saying that but dint care it.
I said to myself, He always stops me, as if there’s going to be a blast..
And I went.
But…can u guess what happend?
We came back coz we dint find any place to sit..
Ya, it happend and that’s why sometimes I’m very much afraid to cross His word.
He loves me after all.
He’s d best caretaker and I feel so blessed..
bye frnds, just for now..
Something unusual..
December 10th, 2008
Frnds..
Have u ever experienced dat sometimes we lose control over ourselves???
Anyway, it happens sometimes..
Still we’re’nt sure what God has kept in store for us..
Whatever it is, we r all going to end up wid a bright smile at what happend..at dat point of time..
I knw I’m not clear, I want to be unclear actually :P
So I’m enjoying now, leaving u wid a confused expression!!!!!
Heehehhehehhehehehehee……..
Keep smiling always..
Life is going to get better in any way.. :)
Thanksgiving to My Dearest Sai..
December 9th, 2008
Gud mrng all my frnds, yesterday was my 23rd bday, and I felt my Sai’s care for me in every min, just every min..
He made my day in such a way that I dont need anything else other than the time being..
Thank u Sai for being my evrything and please please never think of leaving me alone, cuz I just cant imagine anything without u..
I cant stand if u r not thr supporting me..
Thank u always for evrything..
Love u, love u, love u, love u, and love u..
He made my day in such a way that I dont need anything else other than the time being..
Thank u Sai for being my evrything and please please never think of leaving me alone, cuz I just cant imagine anything without u..
I cant stand if u r not thr supporting me..
Thank u always for evrything..
Love u, love u, love u, love u, and love u..
Friends.. Friends.. and Friends :)
December 4th, 2008
Oh my God, where were these friends came from?
They are making life wonderful, thrilling and leaving with a feeling that there are still a lot of things to fill in..For my Little life.. :)
They are becoming one of the best reasons to live life with more smiles.. :D
I want to thank everyone of my dear, sweet, cute, and superb friends.. 0:)
Thank u all.. and be with me all the life.. >:D<
Without anyone of u, nothing gud wud have been possible..
I need u all morethan anything..take care frnds.. Love yu :)
Jus like that :D
October 29th, 2008
Hi all even though I am new to blogging, expecting a lot, that we both can enjoy by it.
How u celebrated this deepavali?
I am with my family, enjoying every minute.
Why I can enjoy every minute being home because I’ve spent years in hostel, anyway now I am at home. Feeling so lucky.
How u celebrated this deepavali?
I am with my family, enjoying every minute.
Why I can enjoy every minute being home because I’ve spent years in hostel, anyway now I am at home. Feeling so lucky.
About Shadow In Madhu Babu Books
I am a big fan of the character ‘SHADOW’, who’s favourite of many other book lovers. The author Madhubabu recently spoke out, he first named shadow as ‘NISEEDHDHU’. Due to some issues, niseedhudu turned out to be shadow and won hearts. We can learn a lot of things from this character if we want to. I’ll try to shortlist them.
1. He’s a real Indian. He cares it.
2. He helps everyone.
3. He never hurts anybody, he tries his best at it.
4. He never step back, no matter how nasty the situation was.
5. In Life, he’s ready to face anything.
6. He always gives his best to anything that came over to him.
7. He cares for his people in every sense.
8. He never discourage one.
9. He’s always optimistic.
To continue, there are still more. If you can read these writings, you can automatically build a lovely personality in yourself, which can easily make Life worthy.
1. He’s a real Indian. He cares it.
2. He helps everyone.
3. He never hurts anybody, he tries his best at it.
4. He never step back, no matter how nasty the situation was.
5. In Life, he’s ready to face anything.
6. He always gives his best to anything that came over to him.
7. He cares for his people in every sense.
8. He never discourage one.
9. He’s always optimistic.
To continue, there are still more. If you can read these writings, you can automatically build a lovely personality in yourself, which can easily make Life worthy.
Wanna tell yu..
Hi everybody, I am new. I am happy to join you. I wanna start this beautiful journey with my most loving God Sai..
If I start saying about Him, sure, there won't be no end.
He’s with me everytime, taking every care of me, and trying every way to make me happy.
I’m what I’m now purely because of Him.
He’s just amazing.
Anyone can have this sort of happiness, with their own possessions, if they can strongly commit to them (whatever they may be).
Hope you learn more joyous ways to make up your life as lovely as it could be. Keep on enjoying. See you later…
Written on October 29th, 2008
If I start saying about Him, sure, there won't be no end.
He’s with me everytime, taking every care of me, and trying every way to make me happy.
I’m what I’m now purely because of Him.
He’s just amazing.
Anyone can have this sort of happiness, with their own possessions, if they can strongly commit to them (whatever they may be).
Hope you learn more joyous ways to make up your life as lovely as it could be. Keep on enjoying. See you later…
Written on October 29th, 2008
New Beginning :)
Hmm surprising how simple things change life..so easily !!
I remember the girl who jumped with joy for just she's permitted to go home from hostel.
How innocent it sounds, aah!!
Now the same girl fighting from evil people in her life with a lot of courage :)
It's all because of one word " Sai" :)
Love yu Sai :) Forever :)"
I remember the girl who jumped with joy for just she's permitted to go home from hostel.
How innocent it sounds, aah!!
Now the same girl fighting from evil people in her life with a lot of courage :)
It's all because of one word " Sai" :)
Love yu Sai :) Forever :)"
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