Confession..

I hate myself for living the day of bitter most realization of my life.
I hate myself for letting it happen.

I met Sai some 12 years ago (as far as my foolish knowledge is concerned :| )
Loved His ideology :)
All He said was to have Sraddha, boundless faith and Saburi, unmoved patience.
It sounded easy to me.
And it is :) :d

One can own Him by simply thinking of Him.
Nothing else.

And I owned Him, for sometime.
He loved me in a way, I could never find words to describe.
He cared for me as if am His only concern in the whole world.
He used to talk to me.
He used to find ways to show me how important I am to Him.
And He made me realize, with out Him, I am nothing.

I couldn't decide now, if I intentionally let myself move slowly away from Him.

But the damage is done.

I miss Him. Al the way.

Even now, I start my day after wishing Him a good morning, and end my day wishing Him good night.

I remember Him, all the time, but I know, I admit, something is missing.

I just took advantage of His closeness, I took it for granted.
And now the problem is, even though He's just the same with me, no matter how foolish to ignore Him, but I am no longer the same. I couldn't hear Him anymore.

It's purely my mistake and I pay for it now.

Still, as He's sweeter than a child, He didn't even take a moments time to forgive me :D
And am welcome into His warmest of hugs again :D

I am crazy about Him, and I pray that I should stay the same :)

I also assign Him the duty of keeping me straight.

Once you own Him, He'll be all yours forever.

After all, He's God, the Almighty, not a man, like you or me.

Now, I confess He's the best thing of my life :)